People, even blogging people have layers. i was 30 seconds away from emo blogging tonight. instead, i decided to put a hold on my cathartic blog line. yes, i use blog waiting sometimes, I even send my blogs to voice mail.
I decided something else today. along with 30 years of lessons and realizations, I decided I need to share with my random readers and sporadic waves of new found followers. share my emo---shuns. why? well, because I am a layered person. complex and sometimes, multifaceted. I am not a "Stepford" wife that is "ON" all the time, that flashes my chicklet smile. No, I have opinions. I have moods. I have reasons. I too have my share of challenges. Notice, I used the word challenge. Only because problem is a word I decided not to use. A challenge I can meet and overcome. A problem is a nuisance.
Moving forward, I also decided to take my feed of off my facebook. Why? Well, it's a funny thing about human nature. The minute you start sharing your feelings or opinions and have something real to say, people [some people] have a tendency to internalize each message. Doesn't mean much to me, since I put out stuff about my life with great care. I don't finger point or name call. I don't share identities. I do share real experiences. So, to diminish any chance of venting backlash, I decided to retract. Of course, I am here. The blog is here.
A quick mention about my blog. Have to spit it out before I forget. Someone asked me what my blog is about. It would have been very mememe of me to say Me? Really, its what I like and what I like to see in the world. Mindful living, peace, love, harmony is what I would like to see. Cliche, maybe, but the truth. What I like; that's simple, everything else. Why do I do this? It keeps my creativity going. It fuels my goals. It gives me a soapbox when I can't find a podium.
I could tell you what brought on this post. but that would be too easy. too simple. I like to think you all are very complex, layered, multifaceted, interesting people. Maybe you can read between the lines, maybe you can hear a message. Maybe you can glaze over this, or maybe you can relate.
I think some of us are so used to this commercialized self-market world, that we become these happy go chirpy go high on life types with glossy eyes and permanent smiles without frown lines-people, that we close off our real selves. We send out this message of perfection. Everyone is walking around with plastic smiles and a story. Few share, few relate. The ones that do reveal themselves, as what they are, have this energy about them. That energy attracts closer bonds with like energies. Whoa, now I am going meta on you all.
I guess, the short version of that would be is, our challenges and our humility make us human. You don't have to go out and share your dark secrets or inner most feelings with everyone you meet. Because, that would be [let's face it] stupid. But, revealing yourself authentically in layers, as time goes on, is an exercise in self-acceptance and confidence. When we don't pretend anymore. We are so comfortable in our skin, that we can admit our battles, learn from them, and walk on with grace.
I look forward to sharing my stories with you all. I look forward to hearing some of yours.
More to come...
With love,
Farida aka Mermaid
